Hes cheating but Im crazy about him
Im 18 and hes 36. We were dating for 7 months and our relationship has been amazing. Ive never met someone where I felt this passionate with during s**, he buys me so many gifts and takes me on trips. There is no doubt that he loves me, but a few months into our relationship I found out that he is still talking to his ex girlfriend. I asked him about it and he said they are just friends and I dont need to worry. Well I found out that they are still having s** too. Nothing is wrong with our relationship and I give him everything he wants, b*******, a***, and kinky play but Im still not enough for him! We get along super well and we dont fight. Eventually my jealousy took over and we started arguing. I finally decided to break up with him and told him it was because the cheating. We broke up on good terms and agreed to take a break from all the arguing and he said he will contact me again in a few months. While Im happy we are in good terms, I feel like he is going to find someone else and not get back with me. He still looks at all my instagram/snapchat stories, not sure if that means anything. Should I just contact him first and get him back now? My brain is telling me not to go back because he secretely hurt me so much throughout our relationship but my heart says yes because our chemistry was so perfect. I guess Im more so asking for advice.