I Don't Want to Care for My Father In His Old Age
I agreed to come live with my father and help him after my mother died. Now I'm so miserable I can't stand it. He's not a bad person; he never abused me or was cruel to me. He's not disabled or bedridden, doesn't require a nurse. He's just forgetful and can't drive at night. But I left home 15 years ago, left the State and never wanted to come back. I've given up a job I loved and now I can't find steady work that pays enough for me to live on my own. He's needy and I'm highly independent and hate having anyone around me constantly. Even him asking me where I'm going if I leave the house irritates me. To the Store. God, can I go to the store without you up my ass? I'm thinking of applying for a job out of state and just leaving abruptly. I have this horrible feeling if he's alone, he'll die from inertia and depression and I can't bring myself to care. I just want my life back.