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help me...
i'm sitting here, physically trembling because i'm so scared, and i'm asking myself, 'am i REALLY ready to get this out of my head and ask for help?'
and though it frightens the ** out of me, i know i need to tell someone, even if it's online and annonymous; i need help. and for the record, i'm a girl.
as a young teen, i was [what i fear] over-sexually curious. i mean, i know everyone gets curious and stuff around early teenage years, but i think i was a little... over the top. i wanted to know what ** felt like, but i had no interest in actually having **, touching myself felt wrong, and i had no means of obtaining a **... so i used a pencil; a freaking pencil and the eraser fell off... inside me.
it's been almost four years. and i'm afraid as ** that it's going to affect my ability to have children, which is something i seriously dream of doing someday, and talk about going to a gynecologist and having them say, 'uh... there's something in there...' or having ** and the guy is wondering, 'ok, what the ** is that that's rubbing on me cuz it doesn't feel right!'
it's utterly humiliating and i don't want to have to go to a doctor about it... i just really need help. if anyone can give me any advice at all, i'd be eternally grateful. i'm scared, and i don't want to have to go on with my life knowing that it's still there... i just want it to be gone...
Try not to worry.You probably have already passed it and just wasn't aware of it.
As much as you might not want to hear this, the ** is some acidic stuff and that eraser is probably LONG gone.
Pencils are too thin. For any kind of pleasure you should at least use a hairbrush handle.
Yeaaa thats what i use