what i don't have the guts to tell you
sometimes, you go into these bad moods that are unbreakable and sudden. out of nowhere, you just become really quiet and submissive, which isn't like you at all. and then when i ask what's wrong, you say 'nothing.' i don't know why you do this, and i don't know what you get out of it, but it's really disconcerting. whenever this happens, i assume you're upset with me because i did something wrong, but this isn't a way to tell me i'm doing something. if i had to name anything i didn't like about you, this would be the only thing. i love that look in your eyes you get when we're about to kiss. i love how you're always so open. i love how you know exactly what to say, when to say it, and when to stop. i love how our skin felt against each other's. i love how we saved our 'i love you', and now whenever we say it, i get chills. i love your smell. i love cuddling with you. i love that new smile that you've somehow obtained. i love how smooth your hands are. i love how you try to know everything about me. i love how i am so outrageously attracted to you despite pre-beliefs. i love you i love you i love you. but wait. now that i've named all of those, i've thought of something else i would say i almost don't like about you. how come i'm always the first one to tell you all of these things? i want to hear them too. i want it to be your idea to tell me you love me and all of the little things i do. i want it to be valentine's day again.