I was very sheltered when it came to s** and never fully explored its wonders. i was married and my wife was very active and adventurous at first but after children she became very uninterested in s** and would have me wait for months at a time. I tried to be patient but eventually i started looking to fulfill myself in other ways without stepping outside the marriage. I started jerking off online and playing with my nipples which I found were so sensitive. I then started riding home from work naked and going naked on the beach and taking pictures to put up online. I got so caught up I would even use a*** toys to substitute having s**. This was beginning to get out of hand as I wanted to have s** with myself all the time. I was asked why I am not always asking for s** anymore and I decided to confess to my wife the situation. She was not happy and we had discussions and we were once again making love during which I had no cravings. Once we stopped for a period of time I would revert back. This led to mistrust and tension which after finding out that she was put in a compromising position with an employer she was sexually oppressed by told to get on her knees and suck his d***. I asked if this was it she said yes they did not have intercourse. Sometime after whilst having a talk and bearing ourselves she admitted to another incident where she was summoned to the bathroom and whilst he was naked made her undress and bendover and stuck his d*** in her she said she doesnt think it was all the way in. This truly bothered me and I fell strongly into my own s** p*** and exhibition. Finally I made the decision to stop and forgive and move on. I was broken and now when she made me wait I waited for her to make the request for s**. She eventually divorced me because I was too nice. I have since which gone from being happy without s** to now accepting that i love it and when i feel h**** I play with my d*** and j*** off online. I have also started going to a masseuse and getting happy endings and I want to explore more now and see if they will peg me whilst they j*** me off. This is my next exploration in s** and next will be a threesome. Stay tuned.