I'm destroying myself.
I'm doing everything I can to ensure she has a happy, easy life, and I try to do nothing to complicate that. We're also best friends. She's said i'm a better friend to her than her boyfriend is. But I can't tell her I love her. I just want her to be happy. I don't want to face rejection. I dont want to be driven away. I dont want her to lose me. I dont want to lose her.
So i've opted to lose myself, instead.