Why does this turn me on?
In the 8th grade I attended a sleepover at a friends house. Six guys doing the usual, staying up late, pizza and video games. When things wound down we had to double bunk. Me and a guy I kinda knew got the pull out couch/bed in the living room. He was two years older than me. After the light were out he started moving around. I realized he had pulled off his sweats and underwear. He reached over, grabbed my wrist and put my hand on his d***. When I pulled it away he gripped it tighter, grabbed my hair and tried to push my head down in his lap. When I resisted he twisted my arm behind my back. It hurt and he told me to "suck it or I will really make it hurt". I stopped resisting and laid down in his lap. I didn't want to suck it so I just licked it. When he got hard he gave my arm a little more twist and ordered me to open my mouth. When I did he shoved my mouth down on his d***. and started thrusting his hips up and down . I just styed there as he f***** my mouth. He finally started grunting and filled my mouth with c**. He held me there until I swallowed what I could then he made me lick him clean. After he let me go he put on his clothes and went to sleep like nothing happened. I didn't tell anyone what happened, ever. I am totally straight and have no desire to be with a guy. But now, years later, when I think about what happened I get super turned on and h****. Is that wrong somehow???Aug 14