I love him. I love him. I can see myself with him. It makes sense to my heart and imagination. My mind however pauses me and slows me down every now and then. I cannot be with him. He's my best friend. I cannot risk losing my best friend for a relationship that might not last. Even worse is that it probably would last if it were only up to us. I can't be with him. My parents and family wouldn't approve. But I am so in love with him. I'm not the rash type of girl whatsoever. But it's so clear to me how great we'd be together. I know he loves me too. I know he's aching to be with me. I know he has a future for the both of us in his head. So do I. But he knows as well as I do that being together is a huge risk and battle we may never win. Seeing him everyday is a bittersweet journey. I breathe him, but the more I'm around him the worse this gets for me. I know he loves me. And I love him, but we say nothing to each other. We got close a couple of times then acted like nothing happened just so we don't need to analyze or risk anything. What do I do? I'm lying to everyone including him and myself. Acting like he's nothing more than a great close best friend.

Report this


  • newest
  • oldest
  • most replies
  • most popular
  • Dreamer com down 2 earth

  • Have u2 f*****

  • Um, despite what your girl friends have been undoubtedly saying to you to make you feel better, if he loved you, and was aching to be with you, and sees a future with you, don't you think that he'd at least TALK to you?!?!?

    Did you ever stop to think that maybe he does want NOTHING more than an uncomfortable friendship?

    I'm not saying this to be mean, but to let you know that the sooner you can let go of this fantasy, the quicker you'll get your life back. Good luck.

Account Login
Is this post inapropriate?
Is this comment inapropriate?
Delete this post?