im not really gay
I'm pretending to be a lesbian to my best friend because im so scared of loosing him cause im SOO fed up with having my friends fancy me & this ruining our friendships. I feel terrible but it has meant that we have been having the best relationship ever and it seems to have helped everything. Now i dont think i can put it right cause he will hate me & think im completly full of myself for having done it i also don't trust that our relationship wont change if I do. so...perhaps i just wont tell him.