I would rather be dead
I don't wash my hands after using public transportation; I want to get the swine flu. I don't wear insect repellant; I want to get dengue fever. I don't wear my seatbelt; I want to get in a lethal car accident.
I would never deliberately commit suicide, but i'm not very careful about having a safe life. i always wish I weren't living. I hate life, I would rather be dead than living.