My parents beat me, and they emotionally abused me. I'm still young, but I know that it's not normal when your being spanked for there to be brusies, and sometimes blood. I also know that it's not normal to be beat with random objects like shoe boxes. Then they told me that no one would ever want me, and some other things. I want so badly to tell the police, but you know what? I'm so scared, and I love them. Their all I have, I'm all alone without them. I just don't know what to do right now, I've thought of suicide. I really have, and I would be so much better off dead. I then realize that my friends would be sad then, and I don't want to hurt them. My friends notice when I come in and start crying, their worried for me to. I can't tell them, I can't drag them into this mess that I've made for myself.