I can't wait to get my own apartment so I can be a dirty **
I had a strict upbringing. My mother allowed my brother to have ** and be normal but she would isolate me and abuse me. I'm still a virgin and also awkward because of my isolated childhood. I only ever did stuff with guys online like on webcam. I loved the attention because I never got it growing up. I also found out I'm into ** degrading ** I think due to being molested by different men numerous times when I was younger. I didn't like being abused like that but for some reason that type of abuse makes it so you can only get turned on by abuse. I sometimes fantasize about having my own apartment so I can engage in the dirtiest, sluttiest, degrading ** I can. My favorite fantasy is being **, **, and creampied by homeless men and letting them ** on me and drinking it also.
I don't know if I would have the courage in real life but I daydream about it constantly. I'm still living with my parents so I haven't been able to bring men over but I'm so close to getting an apartment and I hope it all works out.
My biggest fantasy is to ** a stranger
I'm not homeless but I'd be happy to ** you after I f*** you silly.
You can do all those things that excite you. There are plenty of men with some kinks willing to use you. I recommend you start by dating one ** man who knows all of your fantasy's. I assume you are fairly young, late teens or early 20s. The men you date should be at least 10 years older than you. He can and will help you make it all happen. Good Luck