Dirty fantasy

I don't know how to start this so I'll just get right into it. I'm a teenager and I'm still a virgin but I'm extremely **. I'm not claiming it's real at all, this is just a strange fantasy of mine.
I want multiple men to corner me and take turns using my ** and degrading me. Hitting me and calling me a dirty **. Then I want them to shoot out their ** all over me and in my mouth multiple times until they're satisfied. I want to be a toy that gets ** roughly and then thrown away like trash. I can only ** when I ** myself hard and fast but it isn't enough for me, I want a thick ** inside me ** me over and over until I'm a drooling ruined mess. I want them to make me beg for ** and make me their dirty **.
It might be hard to believe based on what you just read, but I'm very shy. I don't think that'll ever happen to someone like me, no one ever notices me. But still I thought it would feel good to get it off my chest