help

I am a 18 yo lad who for the past 10 years has been having s** with any man who asks. It all started when my dad and uncle spit roasted me at my dads 30th birthday party. I know its wrong but i want that to happen again i just loved it so much i loved being puking over my dads c*** and sucking clean my uncles c***. Do u think i should ask them both this christmas?