I made myself throw up for the first

I made myself throw up for the first time today. It felt amazing. Like I was in control of my body. Like I could determine the outcome. I'm now addicted. It took 2 hours. I want to eat something. I need some help. I want to throw that up. And smile at the vomit, the scent, fact that I accomplished that and that I can determine when, where, how much, what. It's exhilarating.

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  • ew.

  • *me* I am not going to get to that dramatic point. Because then I'll have nothing to throw up! I'll at then throw up, eat again and have one non bullemic meal. It's not going to happen again because I would hate for me not to be able to throw anything up... still throwing up.

  • Ummm, okay! I hope all you enjoy the constant stench of vomit on your breath, the deteriorating enamel on your teeth, the acid eating away at your esophagus, and all those wonderful things that go along with bulimia!

  • i dont think you girls should be doing that thats just looking for trouble .i mean we girls have a lot to worry about anyways why look for more.

  • I did it before but I'm not adiccted to it.

  • *me* I am not going to get to that dramatic point. Because then I'll have nothing to throw up! I'll at then throw up, eat again and have one non bullemic meal. It's not going to happen because I would hate for me not to be able to throw anything up... still throwing up.

  • do you know what feels great?
    when your pointlessly tied to a bed, they pump liquid fatty food s*** up your nose when you can barely fight anymore. not that you had the strength to begin with.
    anorexia sucks, it sucks weight, friends, power, work, love, trust, and life.

  • ok...' now im addicted because i throwu up for the first time to day' ok s*** getta life... and when you do come talk to me about addiction.... throwing up is terrible, cutting is terrible, drugs, s**, lies, stealing, smoking its all terrible... im sorry is i may sound harsh but you dont want this AT ALL it consumes you, it controls you, you do not control it. By doing that you will have little to no control at all... if this is how you want your destiny to be then so be it, take advice from someone who knows and has been battling addiction, is bulimic, and other things... its not freedom and its not Exhilarating, yeah it may be for the time you do it, but soon the chains of addiction will clasp on you and your freedom will be robbed...

    get some help when you can im sorry if you dont like this comment, and if i believed in god... god bless you

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