What is love when its just demonic
Had a 3some as he liked it, i let another man touch, suck, f*****, lick me with him, the guy i was going to spend the rest of my life with, the guy whom craves for me and wants guys to f*** me, the guy who made me become a demon.
For once in my life, i feel as if i have submitted my soul to the devil.
it was a regretfull decision i choose to & i wanna kill myself. i wanna jump down or get knocked down, or get stabbed to death, anything that will take me away from him. from this world. from l***.. from s**, from men.. to ashamed to face this world, how will i be if i had to face god.
can't stop thinking about it, i close my eyes and i see the whole scene in my mind. its driving to my grave and its makes him high.. there is nothing worth living for. it is easy saying, never regret your choices. i regretted mine..
today i regret being born, and not dying when i had the chance too.
pls take me lord. i pray, i do not want to be in this world, more than i wanna be in your world. i am not fit for anything. i sold my soul, never fall in love.. its worst than h***, when your a demon youself