I have turned the tables on my molester
When I was 14 I had s** with the guy who lived alone next door. He was in his late 40's at the time always very friendly and nice and my parents trusted him completely. But whenever he could, he would get me alone and touch me. I remember that starting when I was about 10.
When I was 14 I was just starting to feel sexual things and I turned to him for answers. His answers were to show me. He was gentle and very skilled. He has a large p**** but the pain I felt the first time wasn't so bad because he took it slow and careful.
I liked having s** with him and that made me feel guilty at first. As I got into high school I started taking advantage of our secret. I demanded money from him for booze and drugs. I withheld s** from him when I had a serious boyfriend but went back to him when we broke up.
I am now 24 and he is 57. I am married but I still occasionally have s** with my former neighbor. We are very good together sexually. He pleases me like no other man ever has. I still make him give me money.
Am I w****? Or am I just getting back at the guy who molested me as a child? It feels like both to me.