I will always remember you.
My ex boyfriend and I broke up about 4 months ago,
and i loved him. i still do, it's still there. i will
probably always have feelings for him. i can't help it.
What hurts is that he can just go from me, someone he said he loved, right into another girls arms, and then try to get with me again, and then cut off complete communication just because i do something he doesn't approve of, smoke. When he talks to plenty of other people who also smoke, including his best friend.
I don't care that he's with another girl, but the jumping of girl to girl phases me. i just wish these feelings would go away. just his presence lit up my face. no one else could do that.
his touch, his lips, sent shivers down my spine. his embraces were so comforting. but that's all over now.i made so many changes for him, i didn't cuss around him, i dressed nicer, and i even gave him gifts i got not one thank you for.i'm done wasting my time trying to be friends with him, but that desire to be friends will always burn, even with his selfish judgmental ways.
He was a part of my life that i cannot deny, and maybe one day we could be friends atleast, but that's nothing i'll hold my breath on. i'm trying my hardest to loose my feelings, but it's like it's not enough.