I looked at my naked body in the mirror
I looked at my naked body in the mirror for the first time in ova 5 1/2 months since being raped. I hated what I saw. I saw a dirty person whose scars were just a reminder of the horrors the dirt presented. It was a past, a present and no doubtly my future. I wanted to buldge my eyes out. I cried for hours. I couldn't look at me and love me. I'm confessing with my body completely covered. My tears as though it was rain. I can't admit this to myself as I just can't deal with it. Perhaps writing it will numb the pain... nothing else seems to.