I had a 16 year when I was 20
When I was 20, I had s** with a 16 year-old girl. We were both drunk and she was the assertive one. She was attractive and sexually experienced; a few weeks later she told me that she had had s** with three other partners. I was a virgin and my relationship ended with my prior girl without us having s**, leaving me heart broken and frustrated. The 16 year-old and I went out for about 6 months, and we became close, and clicked in a lot special ways. In the end, though, I was still incredibly guilty and ended up distancing myself from her one day when we were hanging out by telling her how going out with her was a complete 180 from the type of person I was before. I did everything right and was always considered the nice guy who girls were safe around, now I was breaking the law and it was killing me. The 16 year-old said we were a 'good thing,' that she felt safe around me, that I was the first guy she clicked with, and she cried; I had never seen her cry before. In a different place I would have stayed with her, because I loved her. We did not hang out much after that and she found a new boyfriend pretty quickly. It is four years later, so no one can charge me now. I have been on dates but I have not had s** since. I still feel dirty and unworthy. Other than this, I have a good and caring person.