Online friend issues with this....
Okay, I've never done anything like this before, so I've been quite confused since it's happened.
I am a gay man and I've had the same online friend for many years. He lives quite a bit of distance from me, very far away in fact. I was never sure of his sexual orientation, but we connected as friends for similar interests. I've always been very upfront that I was homosexual-- in fact, this friend was the first person I confided to that fact years ago.
Then, about a month ago we were talking about things online as we normally do, and... we ended up having cyber s** through webcam. I've never done anything like that before with anyone.
We are both consenting adults in our mind-twenties.
The thing is, I realized I had started to form romantic feelings for him BEFORE we did what we did. We've talked since then, but this event has not occurred again, though one day we got really heated about the things we'd do with each other when we meet in person.
I keep wanting to suggest we do it again, but I am too fearful of him getting offended or stopping to talk with me. But since it's happened, I cannot get him out of my mind.
I keep wanting to tell him I am falling steadfastly in love with him, or have a crush on him.. but I am such a chickenshit about loosing the friendship. Also, the thought of his face and body and doing with him again what we did drives me crazy with longing.