I betrayed my bestfriend.
You. I betrayed you. I hurt you. I lied, cheated and stole. I'm a traitor. Always have been. Always will be. I love myself, I've learned to live who I've become. Listened to who everyone else thought I was. Now I've accepted the lable given to me, and live by it. I drive 60 on 10s, get drunk every weekend, smoke pot, ciggets, tried coke. This is me now. In less then a year. I'm not the girl you once knew, and I hate you.
I'm never going back, I've dropped out of school, spend my days with drugs and s**. I love s**. I lost my virgenty when I lost you. I cut myself until I see bone. And I f****** love it. I'm above the law. I'm better then you. And nobody will catch me.
Not before I die.
18, less the six months.
This time last year, I was innocent.
Never been raped, never touched a drug, never failed a class. Never got into the kind of trouble I'm in now. And I blame you. I'll always blame you for what you did to me. I lived by the rules. I loved you.
Now I love nobody. Never will.