I REALLY DON'T KNOW?
I am so confused right now. I am a 17 year old female and I am still a virgin, but it's not like I'm not ready for s** cause I am. I have had chances to have s** with a few different guys but I have never really been interested in it. I am very attracted to men, but I don't really desire to have s** with them. I find myself wanting to be with a female not only sexually but emotionally too. Just recently though I have meant a guy that I am very attracted to and he is actually the only guy that I have desired to have s** with and would actually do it with, but I still want to be with another female. Does this mean I am just curious or bisexual, or a lesbian. I am to confused to even say it aloud, and it is even worse because I havn't got anyone that I can talk to about it. My parents say they will love me either way but they get disappointed at the fact that I actually support gays and I embrace it. My friends are just to damn judgemental for me to talk to, the only friend I have that wouldn't judge me is also my straight female friend that I love deeply and when I see her I just want to walk up and kiss her, so no luck talking to her either. I just need some advice on what to do. The guy that I have been talking to is amazing, and sweet and he is very attractive and I would so have s** with him, but if givin the chance I think would choose a female over him. I need someone to tell me something, can you please tell me what you think.