My life is a lie.

I am still a virgin. My current boyfriend doesn't know that, and I've lead him on to believe that I've had s** before, but really, I'm just to embaressed to admit I've never had s** before. I was in a long lasting relationship before him, and because of that everyone assumes I must have lost my virginity to him, but it just never happened. I feel guilty, because I just hate keeping things from him, but I'll seem like a HUGE lier if i admit im still a virgin, after practically telling him otherwise.

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  • I read your narration with deep sense of empathy. A lot of folks have had enough confusion from a "confused world" to last for a life time! Lack of "personal identity" can bore oneself sick even to having suicide thoughts . Have I once considered suicide in my life? Yes .. . and indeed, many folks you see that walk the streets are full of challenges and pains that were inflicted or innate. In my own case, in my teens like you, I thought I will not be able to achieve anything because I was abused as a child , lived in a home that always felt like an explosive device was about to ignite. I struggled with these feelings and tried to fill the void via alcohol and "street smokes". . I envied and wanted to be like others. I began to steal. Well, I am an adult now, well educated, employed, married, had kids, drug/alcohol/smoke free, and really free from all my demons. How? Yes, I know that this will be the question in your heart. It sounded foolish and dreamlike but it was real. Someone gave me a copy of "New Testament and Psalms and proverbs"; a little blue covered book which could fit into my pocket. It was published by Gideon international. I began to read it from "The Gospel of John" like he advised me. I love reading and it made sense. Well, I may not be able to tell you all that happened to me but I discovered that as I read it daily, I began to be attracted to and talk to the main character in the story; Jesus and it seemed like and old self of mine was dropping off daily. At some point , I was shocked when I was out with my friends and realized that I hadn't touched alcohol in the past 2 weeks! That was strange. And the stranger thing was that alcohol lost its appeal to me. In fact, it disgusted me. My friends told me that they will "give me just three months" and I will drink myself to stupor like before. well it has been years and I keep getting better; more pleasant than the person I ever tried to be. . Jesus is beautiful.

  • Nice to know we share this in common. Keep it till you get married and your husband will love and respect you.

  • just tell him!!! guys LOVE virgins

  • seem like?? you ARE a f****** liar. admit it too yourself and him.

  • If she doesnt want to f*** you I will. I got double D's And a p**** that you can fit four fingers in. My ass is big and ready for you. Anyone want my number? I'm a hot 15 year old girl named alonda.


  • Don't ever be ashamed of who you are!! There is nothing wrong with being a virgin. Just be honest with him, he may think it's pretty awesome! If not then maybe he isn't right for you!

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