Using my fingernails, I scratched at my

Using my fingernails, I scratched at my scalp until it bled, making small wounds that didn't heal for months, due to my scratching. I've long since stopped, but now I have small, round places on my scalp where hair no longer grows. One can't see them unless I part my hair perfectly down the middle.

Even though nobody knows, it's the shame that I ever did something that obsessively painful to myself that makes me feel ugly, even today.

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  • You could have a form of OCD, or just a dietary deficiency. I did the same thing when I was 11 years old, the doctor put me on vitamins and said eat more veggies, it seemed to help a lot.

  • I know how hard it is not to be ashamed. I used to cut and am deeply ashamed of my past decisions. The above poster is right, though, your scars are a part of you, and have made you into the person you are today. I used to look at my body and be ashamed, but then one day, I really thought about it....The scars do not define me, but I now realize my life, although not always pleasant, has made me into the person I am today. People who love you...will look past the scar and into your heart. They know and will see the real you...Those are your real friends, those are the ones who will love you through life’s storms and be there with you rejoicing though the happiness.

  • To the poster and the 1st commentator, scars are nothing to be ashamed of, they show experience. And if you ask me experience is a beautiful thing. Sure people can be judgemental and stupid, but it's the real gems in life that have the maturity to look past these things. Wear your scares with pride, you're a better person because of them.

  • i pick my scalp every day, but not as a self-mutilating activity. it started with a little scab i couldn't stop picking at, then i guess i began picking at places without scabs just to pick. well these places developed scabs as a result of my picking, so now i have lots of scabs to pick. i used to bite my fingernails, but i have to let them grow a little so i can pick my head. i know i shouldn't do it because it's causing my hair to thin and get gray before it's time. but when i wake up in the morning i am so happy i have something to pick & i can't seem to stop.

  • Don't worry about it. If anyone ever did ask, say you fell off your bike into some gravel when you were a kid. What better place to have scars than on the old coconut? Just keep your hair long enough to cover them.

  • I bet you're a beautiful person. Everyone goes through something that makes them feel ashamed. I used to cut myself obsessively and now my arms are extremely scarred. Not that I don't do it anymore,it's hard to get over. It's good that you could finally share this,though.

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