Abortion

When I was fifteen years old I was raped and conceived a child.
I was scared out of my mind and ended up having an abortion so I wouldn't have to face it.
After, I immediately regretted it.
I ended up trying to kill myself more than once, and struggled with self-mutilation for a long time. (It's still, at times, hard for me to refrain from doing.)

My abortion was the worst decision of my entire life. Until I met my current boyfriend, I cried myself to sleep over it every night.

I go to sleep and see the face of my baby... It's hard to bare, even four years later.