I always have to m*********.....even when im at work!! I can never get this feeling out of my body. it feels like a ticking time bomb and if I dont take care of it it will kill me!!! if I dont o***** I feel sick to my stomach and horrible.....but once I do I feel horrible and dirty for doing it. my fiancee doesnt even know I have this problem. I have to o***** at least five times a day just to be able to function!!! its a disease I tell you!!!! if I dont o***** thats all I can think about is getting myself off again or getting him to make love to me it consumes me as a person!!!! I dont know what to do and I cant talk about it cause it makes me a dirty person!!!