just when i started to believe that
just when i started to believe that everything was going to be ok, my life seems to be crashing down again. i spend a good portion of every day crying. sometimes i long so hard to just not be alone, and it seems to be when that is just impossible. i can not escape my thoughts. i wish i could go back in time... find what i did wrong and fix it. i want my baby to be happy and have everything she needs. the future of her life scares me more than my own.