That I have no idea what I am supposed to believe. I don't even know what I believe. I like to pretend that I know everything about how life is supposed to function but really I am just as lost as everyone else. I long to find a faith that I can truly and completely believe. I feel like I get on God's nerves with all the things I do wrong and keep doing wrong. I wish things were more simple and straight forward. I strive to be a good person and I might make some mistakes along the way or fall into a few ruts but I do the right thing and only wish that the answer to life's big questions were black and white however everything seems just a little gray to me.