I Don't Want to Feel like This
I am gay. possibly bisexual because i also feel atracted to women. But I don't like it. I never wanted to be like this. I started to feel atracted to other men since I was 12-14. But it's just a feeling that grew up with me. I tried to ignore it, but it only became stronger. I wish I could stop it and just be like everyone else, but I can't, it's gone too far. I hate myself. I feel depressed and I don't know how to handle it. I have been thinking about killing myself since a very young age( I am 19 now) that's the only way I can stop it.