16 and bisexual
I know I've been bi since I was 8, at the pool when I was younger like 8-10 I would find myself looking at any men in the change room, I'd always make sure no one was looking but ever since I was young I've fantasized about being touched all over my body and raped. I used to bike around town in back streets and hang around parks by myself waiting for an older man to show interest.
The desire has only grew the older I get, but I can't seem to find any men online who wants a young guy like me. And being public about this sort of thing isn't an option lol.
What do I do? I can't just stop thinking like this, and it makes me hard every time I think about it. I've even been shaving my a*** hole since I was 12 just so if I ever did meet a guy he'd be more likely to want me again.
Any one have any ideas? :)