Tencion in my mind affecting in my relationship
My boyfriend is so sweet and charming man. He is so nice handsome and everything a woman can dream of having. Our relationship is fantastic except this little problem inside my head. I am a narsist. Not so badly but still. I do not prefer myself better than everyone else or expect any kind of special treatment. I just can not control the violent monster inside me. Sometimes when we argue i would like to hit him so hard and shout him how pathetic he is. I would like to dominate him on every way i can possibly do. I do think i have got a serious problem but he tries to convince me that i am just overreacting and i can not be serious with my words. I do have some empathy in me but most of the times i really have to thing how would other people feel on the situations i go through. I am trying to control myself but is really hard for me. I believe that the feelings i have towards my boyfriend are love and care but i cannot be sure because i do not know how love feels. I believe that i love him but i do not want to do this ln him. He does not deserve the monster i carry inside of me, or the horrible things it is able to do. I am an intelligent person and can really think these things through. He loves me i love him but i am afraid. What should i do?