Imiss him

Ater my Dad sexually abused me at the age of 14 I never thought i'd forgive him! 3 years later and hes in prison, he sent me and my siblings packages through the police, containing cards from missed birthdays and Christmas'!
Deep down, I miss him, I don't want to see him but I miss days out at the weekend. I miss family Christmas' and having a normal life. He destroyed everything that night, but I miss him!