I went to an okay school and majored in
I went to an okay school and majored in a completely superfluous field that I had no passion for, I just wanted to get it over with. I got a 3.5 GPA. Now I've graduated and I've been hit with the desire to go to medical school for psychiatry. Medicine saved my life. I'm considering going back to college for a year to get my pre-med requirements out of the way. I know I'd do well in the classes and I know I'd get excellent grades, because when I love something I excel. I'm completely driven.
The only problem is I'm afraid my mother won't approve because I didn't do that well in my undergraduate program. I blew off a lot of classes, got high constantly (something I don't do anymore), took many many many classes pass/fail and made a bunch of other bad decisions. I'm afraid to tell my friends that I want to go to medical school, I'm afraid to tell my mother, I'm worried that my educational background will be a hindrance. I want to do this and I could get my requirements out of the way for ~7k at a decent school, living with my mother. I feel like this is an incredibly important decision but I'm also afraid it might be incredibly stupid - like I'll spend yet ANOTHER year of my life at uni and then not get into medical school.
So I am confessing this secret before I confess it to anyone else.