I had s** with him when you were living out of town.
I let him use me, and I hated every second of it - but not as much as I hate myself now.
I pray to whomever gods intervene so that you may never find out.
I have severe boundary issues. I don't know how to stop being so physical with people I don't even like that much.
I think I'm going into another depressive episode.
I need help.