I like to beat the living day lights put of my wife. I derive great satisfaction from it. I like to push it to the brink, when I choke her I like to see the life leaving the whites of her eyes. She whimpers and cries like a puppy and it makes me go further, I humiliate her; when she misbehaves I like to pull down her pants and put her over my knee and spank her like a child, usually with a spatula. Why do I find this hilarious ? Help!!!