I just spent 20 minutes crying so heavily that I started dry heaving. My mother came home and yelled at me because she measured the table wrong and bought the wrong size cover. This happens daily. I get blamed for things that I have nothing to do with and I can't deal with it anymore. I want to kill myself so badly but the only thing stopping me is knowing what it would do to my friends. I've never been someone to share my problems, I don't want to trouble them. I just don't know what to do anymore. I can't be around her.