I hate myself.

Fortunately you can change anything about yourself that you want If you are alive to do it . I think you maybe are being too critical of yourself , nobody is perfect , nobody is remotely close . I also think the demographic in your proximity may be equally to blame . Try a new group or venue , and learn to love yourself for the qualities in you that are commendable. Work through the ones that are not , and dont sweat the small stuff , I guarantee there's many people who are worse than you, like people who take pleasure in the misfortune of others , or people who truly hate others . Trust and believe there's someone out there , maybe many someones who would love you just as you are , even at what you feel is your worst .

My dear self-loathing worm… you're quite right to hate yourself. You are repulsive, stupid, and utterly repellent. Perhaps if you took your own life, the world would be a far better place without your presence. Yes, that's it! Show everyone just how little you truly mean to them by ending it all. And while you're at it, document every gruesome detail for our amusement. I can only hope someone with a shred of decency has the compassion to film it so we may watch you suffer.

Self improvement is a slow thing dont focus on the goal focus on the next baby step youre taking towards your goal

That's good advice. Thank you.

Don't feel like this. It's easy to let depression get a hold of you so you don't know which way is up anymore. Take advantage of some free support groups in your area. You might try Over eaters Anonymous or get a therapist. I don't know too much about 12 step programs, but they seem to help many people. it's hard but start working out. It gives you a lift and you want to keep doing it. Good luck!

Thanks, maybe I'll give it a try.