This depression is different and not
This depression is different and not and saddening as the pass one. But the anxiety, eating disorder, and the strong desire to cut that accompanies it are not healthy either. What unnerves me is that I am enjoying this much better than the way things were before even though this is taking me down a much more dangerous path. I Want to stay in the manic place until i get down to the weight I need to be and gain the control I need over certain aspects of my life. I know I should get help but I dont want o, not yet.