What do I do???!!!
I am married, have been for 18 years and I love my wife to death, but am wanting other women so badly I feel like I'm on the verge of going after them now! My wife's cousins, my cousins, co-workers (one who is 30 years my senior, but whom I love and we flirt with each other daily -- I'm afraid if I had a chance I'd sleep with her in a heartbeat!). My wife and I have made an arrangement with one other couple (which I love and maybe that's helping to push me into being so hedonistic), but nothing else. I'm getting confused. Maybe I just need to cut everything else out but my wife, but it is so difficult. What should I do???!!! I still feel out of control! If it's right just to be with my wife, how do I turn off all the desires? Please help! And will I have to turn off the other couple, the woman of which I have also been in love with forever? I just love it! But am I bad?