I had ** just to make him happy
I'm 15, almost 16, and have been dating a guy who's 17 since August. I didn't think that the age would matter, but clearly it does. Not once has he ever pressured me to have **, not even kissing; he's great that way. But we were talking about secrets and he told me that he's had ** 6 times already in his life, with three different girls and not even counting oral. So obviously, I was jealous and freaked out at the same time. So one night i just went over to his house and said let's have **. I wasn't really ready, but i feel like i had to rush it, it's not lie he couldn't find it somewhere else. I think he enjoyed himself, so at least that's a positive, but I feel really guilty now.
Not judging you, but maybe you shouldnt have done that. ** is something that you should never feel pressured into. talk to him about why you did it and if he loves you, he'll understand and help you work it out.