Falling for an engaged man
A little over 2 years ago I met this handsome guy (27 yrs old), we felt a very strong attraction for each other right away but it only lasted for about 2 months. We both broke it off because we felt we weren't ready for anything serious (I had recently gotten a divorce). We remained friends for 2 years after that. We never saw each other again but we would text and talk every now and then. I always felt I could tell him just about anything and he felt the same way. About a year and a half ago I met a wonderful guy and he met a good woman too, so I decided to cut all communication with him, for respect to both of our partners but he never stopped texting, he would text at least once every few weeks, just saying hi and letting me know he missed me. I started replying to his texts just about 3 months ago (he is now 29 and I am 32) by then my boyfriend and I were having problems and we eventually broke it off. As far as I had heard from him, him and his now fiancee were having problems too, he wanted out and didn't know how to end it. So then we both started telling each other everything again, for over 2 months I rejected his invites to meet again but about a month ago I finally said yes. We felt that exact same attraction towards each other immediately and we spoke for hours and at some point we held hands, it was very sweet. We spoke about his engagement to this girl and he promised he was working on how to end things with her in the most calmly way for everyone (they live together), I told him we would not see each other again until he was done with that situation and he agreed but neither one of us was able to keep that promise and we saw each other again and again and again. I've only gone to meet him once to his town and he's been to my place many times already, he drives from far away just to come see me. I don't know how it happened and when it happened but now I feel desperately in love with this man. I haven't dare to ask him again about when he would break off the engagement, to be honest, I'm a little scared about the answer. I have been acting though and a bit cold to him just so he doesn't know how much I really care about him. He's told me he loves me many times and how not talking to me for so long was h*** for him and how happy he is that I am single now. When he says those things I believe him but then again, he's engaged!.
I am so confused and don't know if I should tell him how I feel about him, I don't want my heart broken again. I can't help to wonder if he's being honest with me about his engagement.