Awkward self reflection
I turned 20 a couple months ago. I started having regular s** right before I turned 19 and I have slept with 17 people already. I have slept with three different men this week (none new). I am lying to one about not seeing other people. I really want to be a lesbian. I have a strange complex that I feel the need to tell men when they have affected my body during s**-such as bruises or soreness and I think its because I want to feel like a victim so my choices dont seem like my own and so I can feel solidarity with exploited women. I also want men to apologize to me for exerting power over me as a gender even if they as an individual were not abusive.