i am a 14 yr old guy, going on 15 next
i am a 14 yr old guy, going on 15 next week. i have a phobia of anything sexual and whilst all the other guys in my school (its an allguy school) drool over p**** i have never been turned on before or felt remotely attracted . it is really confusing. evrybody thinks i must be gay and i feel like a freak bcos i (this sounds stupid) tried being gay, str8 and bi, but none of them worked, i couldnt be gay str8 or bi. Am i a freak? i don't know. but i think i might know why i am so weird.
when i was 11 my godmother fell in love with this guy called Marc. When i went to stay with her i met him. Sometimes she had to go to work and leave me in his care. Then he used to do things. like weird things. sexual stuff i guess. he used to touch me in places i didnt want to be touched. he never like kissed me or raped me. he was just weird and creepy. luckily tho, or unluckily for my godmother, the 2 of them went to egypt for a fortnite holiday except they never came back. their like on the missing persons list.
i no this mite b y im so weird but i dunno i just dont get how that made me like asexual or sumthing.