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I will go to Australia and if there is a miracle I will see you J
I'm a 20 years old Vietnamese girl , this is the 1st time I write a confession . I decided to write it out because I hope if their is someone read , they will not make the same mistake as I did .
Couple years ago , before my university's entrance test I've to attend English class to improve my skills . At the beginning of the course , I was busy a bit so I absented 2 days : one writing and one speaking . So I attended another class ( with same study's process as mine ) to make it up . In the writing class , everything was fine , nothing special to remind . But in the speaking class , I've met my Mr.special . I remember that day I went to class very early , and I chose the seat in the corner . I was sitting their , little chat with the guy next to me and he appeared . As soon as he coming , I couldn't stop looking at him . That was a really strange feeling , everyone around suddenly disappeared , as if the whole universe only surrounded him . He was my speaking teacher for that day , he's Australian , at that time he introduced he 23 years old thus he is 6 years older than me . He's really tall , and handsome , with deep blue eyes . I even remember that day he was wearing a blue shirt . The thing I should remember is his name , which I completely forgot , only know that it begin with letter " J " .
During the class , I kept silently looking him and he did smile at me couple times . And my heart was beating like crazy and as a result I acted like a idiot .
After that class , I've seen him around school couple times , he said " hi " and asked me some polite normal question but instead of being open with him , I avoided him .Another time when he was smoking and I walk by , he hurriedly jump in and say " hi " with a big smile but one more time I let him down , only smile slightly and kept walking . Because there was punch of girl play around him , every times he start to speak with me , girls appeared , I couldn't do anything but walk away . On the other hand , I was in relationship at that time , so despite all the feeling I've for him , I chose to shut it down and avoid him . Several weeks later , he disappear completely . I did try to find him in teacher office by asking some others but no one knew because I could even give them his name .
And now , after years I still can't forget that feeling , that sparkle gazing whenever I look at him . Maybe I've mistakenly him , but , I still want to keep those memories as mine precious treasure . And I've learned a lesson that if I ever have that feeling with anyone else I won't let it go , I'll catch it and try all my best even if lose or win , apparently still better than regret because of do nothing .
It's a painful thing that you've experienced, but it seems to me that you have taken away the right lesson, and for that, I applaud you and encourage you. You're very intuitive and intelligent, and those are increasingly rare attributes. Good luck to you.