When I was 20 yrs old I was partying
When I was 20 yrs old I was partying alot. Ive always had the uttmost respect for women, but something happened twince that year that makes me think that I may be a rapist. I have struggled with this for years, so here is my story:
I was at a party and its was getting late, so I decided to go back to my friends house where they had went earlier to crash. When I got there one of my femals friends was really drunk and she said she was hot. I took off her sweatera nd her pants to cool her off. I was so turned on that i begane to fondle her under her panties. She didnt react at all, so i took out my p**** and had intercourse with her. I even e********* inside of her. The next morning we all woke up and nothing was said about it.
2 weeks later I was at the same friends house and we were totally wasted. My best friend (whome is female) came into the house and was to the point of passing out. She was at a rave previously so there is no telling what she was on. She asked me to help her undress so i did. I put her into bed in her bra and panties and went back into the living room to drink somemore. i noticed on of the other guys go into the room so I went to investigate. He was looking at her under the cover. I would not stand for this so I asked him to leave and decided to lay down beside her and go to sleep so noone would try to do anything to her. She was so beautiful and I was attracted to her secretly. So I began to fondle her b****** and she said nothing. I then fingered her and she still said nothing. I was extremely excited by now and totally drunk, so i pulled her panties to the side and penetrated her. I had s** with her for about 20 min and e********* inside her as well. She never woke up durring the s**. She was out cold from whatever she had taken at the rave. the next morning she woke up and woke me up to say "goodmorning" and give me a hug. Which was normal for us. nothing was ever said about it again.
Now its been 10 yrs and I still wrestle with the fact that I may be a rapist. Am I?