Kill my self?
I have never said this aloud and I have never actually put it in words.
I am 25 yrs old or young. It seems like everybody around me love me. Except I am thinking about taking my own life, everyday.
I dont know why. Im just thinking of cutting my veins and bleeding to death. So relieving. So peaceful. So easy.
I know what yall be thinking. But you're wrong.
I am not in love or heartbroken or love disappointed or anything like that.
Im not a deluded teenager or illiterate attention seeking idiot. Im well educated, will soon be getting my MA degree. Im not a looser either. Im not poor or socially excluded. Everything is just the opposite. I have lots of friends or well... I guess I cant call them friends because I dont tell them about my suicidal thoughts? Naah they're friends, good friends, but Id never burden them with these kind of things. SO yeah I do have people around me.
I have parents too, who love me a little too much. Other family and siblings care too.
But honestly...... these thoughts I can not escape from. This is the first time I said it. I would never have anyone from my family or my friends suspect that Im having these thoughts. I doubt they'd even take it seriously. Since Im always cheered up and positive.
Why am I writing it here then? I dont know. I felt like I had to say it somewhere to someone. Make some kind of note. A letter maybe. I dont know. Thats it then...