Can't stop fantasizing about men
When I was fourteen I had a friend who got me really h**** by going through Playboy magazines with me and talking about how great a b****** from one of those hot women would be. Then he started talking about how a mouth is just a mouth, really, and when your eyes are closed it doesn't matter who's blowing you. He asked me if I'd ever give a guy a b****** for any amount of money. I said I would. He asked if I'd ever be willing to do it for free. I hesitated, and he told me that he knew he was gay and that he'd been jerking off while thinking of me since he was twelve. He wanted to suck my c*** to see what it felt like. He also wanted me to suck his c***. He wanted me to be his first experience. I was nervous as h***, but I was flattered and very turned on. I agreed to it. He sucked me first, then I got on my knees and sucked him. We didn't c**, and we didn't talk about it again for a couple of months.
Eventually we talked about it again, which led to us fooling around again. I came in his mouth that time. I think we were fifteen. I let him c** in my mouth, too. Neither of us swallowed that time. As the years passed we started fooling around even more. Kissing, touching each other, swallowing each other's loads. I cheated on two girlfriends with him. He cheated on three boyfriends with me. It got to the point where I could send him a message and say "come suck my c***" and he'd come right over.
He's been in a serious relationship now for a few years, which means I haven't fooled around with him. Lately all I can think about when I j*** off is having a hard d*** in my mouth. I love feeling that throbbing c*** jerking in my mouth, I love feeling it spasm as a guy c*** and fills my mouth with his hot, sticky seed. I love swallowing it and licking up every drop. I love feeling a man running his fingers through my hair, hearing him moan my name, hearing the sounds he makes as he c***. I love looking down at a man as he gets on his knees for me, as he sucks me to completion and swallows everything I give him. I love kissing a man and tasting my c** in his mouth.
God, I need to suck a c***. I'm so eager to get on my knees for a man. I want to blow a married man, no strings attached. I want to be his secret, his bi lover on the side. None of the guys I've tried to pick up on Craigslist have ever come through. How do I find a guy? God, I need it.