I just want someone to desire and give

Dude, give into love u lucky **

Aww, that **. You need to do some self searching. Before anyone else can care about you, or you can accept the care of someone, you need to "give a **" about yourself. Trust me, you don't ever want to have to look to someone else to prove your self worth. What you can start doing is listing out things you like about yourself, and study it. Also, write down the things you don't like, and burn the paper. Don't use words like, "chunky" to describe yourself. I am no skinny girl, and I used to have very low self esteem. I used to think, if I were thinner or prettier, I would be happier-WRONG! Pretty skinny girls also suffer from low self-esteem. Do some soul searching, and you will realize you are worthy of love, even from your self.