My bed mate and I are not a couple, we
My bed mate and I are not a couple, we live together under the same roof, but hes got a gf. I love him so much, but he doesnt love me back. he uses/abuses me sexually the way he wants.i am scared of him. he f**** me once a week anally and thats it. he doesnt want anything else. i give him a b****** every day,and thats how our relationship is. he will never leave his gf, shes in another city, he goes once a month to meet her. I am scared and so much in love with him. i cry every night and wish he was mine.why is god punishing me?